I was thinking this morning that this blog doesn’t really fit into any of the ready niches that the blog-world offers.
- There are Mommy blogs, which are about home life, and kids, and how to stay sane amidst the chaos of everyday life,
- There are homeschool blogs, which are similar but more focused on education and learning,
- There are Catholic blogs, which talk about matters of faith, and
- There are personal development blogs, which talk about self-improvement and building better habits.
If you built a Venn diagram of those categories, this blog would fall in the tiny intersection of all four.
Personal development for Catholic homeschooling moms – maybe I’ll make that my new tagline!
But self-doubt follows on the heels of that definition – “Who do you think you are?” whispers the devil in my ear, “Why do you think you have any right to speak on any of these things?”
What is my authority for talking about faith, about raising children, about self-improvement? Shouldn’t I have some kind of expertise, some credentials? Shouldn’t I at least be able to claim some success in these areas before I start telling others about them?
Cue Emmett from the Lego movie!
BUT, I think this self-doubt plagues many bloggers and writers, and anyone who puts themselves out there to the public. And I think sometimes it leads to people putting on public personas, and laying out this glossy-magazine, perfect version of their lives, which isn’t their everyday reality. And while I think we do realize that this happens, it’s still discouraging to read everyone’s happy stories when it feels like all we ourselves have to share are failures and screw-ups, and not even amusing ones at that!
I do find myself hesitating to talk about the bad days, the disappointments, the struggles, at least until I can find some humor in it, some way of looking at it that doesn’t feel like it’s a total failure. And yet, I know when I read of other people’s struggles, I find them encouraging. If I can extend compassion to others in their struggles, surely I should trust that they will extend it to me in mine. And maybe we’ll find the silver lining in it together.
So I’m just here sharing my personal journey – the peaks, the valleys, the struggles, the small wins, and hopefully, the big wins. And yes it’s about faith AND habits AND self-improvement, AND life with kids, AND homeschooling, AND so so so many books, because that’s what makes up my life. I hope you find it helpful or at least entertaining. Thank you for sharing this journey with me. Here’s to more ANDs!
Oh, AND more Chesterton!
“You say grace before meals. All right. But I say grace before the concert and the opera, and grace before the play and pantomime, and grace before I open a book, and grace before sketching, painting, swimming, fencing, boxing, walking, playing, dancing and grace before I dip the pen in the ink.”